Tunnel

I enter
The dark and vast expanse
Infinite yet confounding
Perplexing
And confining
I enter
And my heart rockets
My head whomps
My bladder presses painfully
Urging me to turn back
You enter, and you will never leave
It is never ending
Filled with suffering and pain
The whole time, threads and thorns will snare you
Tugging you forwards and backwards
All at once
The noise is overwhelming
It thunders and echoes
Leaving no space for the wafting strumming of a guitar
Or a thought
Or regret
I enter and exit at the same time
An entrance to deep, heavy darkness
Stark and spiny
It hammers away at my thoughts
GETOUTGRTOUTGWTOUT
this time
I have a choice
This time,
I can slam my hands on their back and shove them away
And I will stab them if they don’t comply
I have no space for regrets
Only moving forward
No space to judge or justify the expenses of my experience
My existence
I am simply here
And once,
This was my existence
A never ending tunnel
So dark
Painfully abysmal
Deep and morose
Til tossing the body over the lip of the drop
Means greater gains
Than enduring onwards.
Now,
I can turn around
I can fight back
I can whoop and scream
I am never leaving
Yet I have never fully arrived